Spare a thought for me...

Not much has been going on this weekend, the RUF Black Cow Game night was a total blast. Then it "iced" here over the weekend, before it got too bad, Diana and I did doughnuts in the rainey parking lot, She's never done them before so I thought I'd show her the wonders of empty, ice covered parking lots. After it did get bad, I about broke my neck 8 times trying to walk down the hill at the village to get back to my room, but amazingly enough I didn't fall. It's one of those days today when you just have to sigh. I'm not really sure why I feel the need to. Well...that's only partially true I suppose. Do you ever come across those people in life that once you finish hanging out or talking with them, you maybe sometimes feel like lesser of a person. Not a bad person necessarily, but sometimes I feel that there's some certain people that do a really terrific job of nailing my character flaws, I'm assuming it's unintentional, which can make it more frustrating. I don't know what I'm trying to say...
Anyway, right now I'm procrastinating on writing a couple of pages of the historical background of the Arts and Crafts movement and the economic, social, political, and possible philosophical impacts that led to the struggle against industrialism and desired return to medievalism for the craftsman. Neat, huh? Yeah that's why I'm probably procrastinating. Alright, well, this post was neither here nor there, so I'm gonna get back to my paper.

Didn't intend for the post to get this long...maybe you should go grab a sandwich first. Just kidding

It's been a pretty good week thus far, and since technically my school week ends after my night class tonight, I think it's alright that I'm making judgement calls on the week when it's only Thursday. My ankle is healing nicely, it doesn't really hurt anymore, my ego is still bruised, but I don't think that will ever go away, especially with all the um..."recurring incidents" Just kidding. I try not to let myself be too embarrased and become too dramatic and take things too seriously. So far so good. =)
In a previous post I had been talking about some tension and whatnot in some relationships, and these last few weeks or so, it's subsided since then, but through it, I've learned alot of things about people, unfortunately, what I've discovered isn't necessarily great. Not to say that I hate these people or that I can't stand them or anything, but I've definitely realized things about some people's characters that are discouraging. And it makes me kind of sad, because these are the types of things that they probably don't see as bad or as anything that needs to be changed, and I suppose it doesn't necessarily need to be changed, but what I'm learning is that I think I'm different from some people and I don't think I ever fully understood that until recently. One of the things that I've noticed, is that some people lack the motivation (or whatever you'd call it) to change themselves, even if they're not satisfied with who they are. I don't know if it's laziness that's holding them back, or fear, or what it is, but it honestly frustrates me to have someone tell me that he or she doesn't like something about himself or herself, but won't do anything to change, and they start to just accept it as fact even if it obviously could be changed. The other thing I'm starting to notice alot is the negativity. Before you roll your eyes at me and my sarcasm, Yes, I know I'm an extremely sarcastic person, and if whomever is reading this has ever been hurt or discouraged by my words, I do apologize, I'm not perfect, and while I can honestly say that I do not mean for my "jokes" to be taken in any sort of serious way, I know that sometimes they're not taken as lightly as I mean for them to. I will say that I'm always joking, and I try not to let my tongue get away from me, but again, I'm not perfect. If I am sarcastic though, I'm not trying to belittle because I'm angry or defensive. If I do get angry or defensive, you'll know, because I will stop talking, and we all know how often that happens =) Anyway, after that disclaimer, I've noticed that others may not always be joking, and others do use sarcasm as a mask for something that is mean, and I don't like that. I feel that by hanging out with certain people that may do that, it begins to be contagious. It's so easy to be miserable and judgemental and just downright negative, but that isn't a Christian attitude to have, and being Christ-like isn't easy. The last thing that I've noticed I suppose kind of ties in with the first thing about unwillingness to do something. And this is a trend that is everywhere among younger single females. I get kind of frustrated when girls will base their lives on the prospect of marriage. Don't get me wrong, because I'm not a femi-nazi. Marriage is a blessing from God and is I'm sure wonderful, but sometimes I feel like some girls will spend their lives sitting on a couch not doing anything just waiting for Prince Charming to come and sweep them off their feet. Dreaming of marriage isn't the problem, the problem is that life is not pointless up until the time you say "I Do." I feel like some girls honestly just live their lives as if they are just killing time until some guy hands them a ring. I know it sounds stupid, but Good Lord, think of all the opportunities there are to make a difference in someone's life, think of all the opportunity there is to make a change! But instead some girls would prefer sit on the couch watching whatever Wedding show is on for 4 hours a day dreaming of their perfect wedding, rather than doing something productive, and that makes me sad. And frustrated. And now that I've written way too much, I think I'm going to stop ranting now, because I'm ok. I'm cool... If you made it all the way through the post, Congratulations, you've just read what's been on my mind for a long time now. Leave a comment if you wish (Don't forget you can post anonymously, mom<3>

What do you want on your tombstone? **see below**

Well it's been almost a week since I posted last, no wait, more than a week. Whoops! Oh well, a couple things have happened in my life since then. I got called in for an interview to Golden Corral on Wednesday (at 11:00 p.m. that's right, PM) I started Friday at 4, gave them my 2 weeks notice at 11:00, went in at 4 the next day, was told I didn't have to work there at 8, and now have a personal record for shortest time worked at any part time job of a whopping 11 hours. Funny how quickly things go by when they really do go by quickly. The job wasn't right for me, it didn't feel right at all, and although It makes me a little nervous to say that I am willing to quit a job after 11 hours because it didn't feel right, I don't think that I'm really missing out on anything. I'm beginning to think that God didn't really want me to have that job. Well I hope so anyway, because I sure don't have it anymore.
Second thing that's happened to me is that I once again have managed to hurt my left ankle. I'm pretty sure it's just a minor sprain, but it hurts to do things like jumprope, and kick things with my left foot, and jump on the trampoline, and stand on my left leg like a flamingo for long periods of time, you know, all the things I really love to do. How, you ask, have I managed yet another injury? Well, to those of you that I've already told the story to about how I saved the little Old Lady's life and her purse by tackling and holding the thug that was trying to rob her until the police got there....yeah that's the story. But some accounts may actually say that I was walking down the stairs in the library like the nerd that I am with a stack of books that may or may not have obstructed my view so that I missed the last step.... I have no comment. Well that's about it for now. It's a pretty relaxing day today, I have just a teensy tiny bit of homework to finish which should only take me like an hour and then I have RUF tonight (yay) and then I get to go to bed early tonight. Hopefully everyone is doing alright.

Oh yeah, so the Whole "What do you want on your tombstone?" thing: That question is a possible question for my dear friend Ashley's USC interview. It made me think for awhile, so I was just curious how people would answer that question. The first thing I thought was "Pepperoni and Cheese" Remember the old tombstone pizza commercials? yeah, I didn't watch too much tv... Anyway, comment below if you want with an answer. See you guys later!

Never be afraid to sit awhile and think. ~Lorraine Hansberry, A Raisin in the Sun

So...this blog can't really show how much time I've spent sitting in front of this post trying to figure where on earth I'm gonna go from that first word, but so far it's been about 4 minutes. Lots of thoughts are running through my head right now, thoughts about alot of things. I dont really feel like posting it though, mostly because I haven't come to any conclusions about anything, and that's frustrating. Maybe that's not the right word, but it's kind of befuddling. yeah thats a better word. Well since I don't really have anything of value to expound upon, but I will give a quick side story. Cassie got a call on her cell phone, but she's downstairs right now, so I was going to be nice and take her cell phone to her. Well, on the way, there was a big gale force wind in the hallway and the phone that was in my hand was ripped out of my hand and came crashing down to the floor and it sure broke into 4 pieces. Whoops! Luckily, it looks like we can put it back together, so it's not that bad. Well that's about it for tonight. See everyone later!

Nothing like finding out you love what you think you hate...

Even though I thought I would hate my schedule this semester, I'm actually beginning to really love it. God made me take a break this semester and as usual, it turns out He really does know what's best for me. Here it is, 8:38 in the morning, I have class at nine, and I have all my homework completed up until Tuesday and I got my 8 full hours of sleep in last night. Last semester, I didn't know what it was like to go to bed the same day you woke up, but this semester, oh ho ho, this semester is wonderful. I'm a nerd again that spends her free time doing homework that doesn't need to be started until tomorrow, I'm an old lady again that goes to bed at least an hour before everyone else does (although I think my hearing is going too), I'm a little OCD and can organize everything in my room again. Man, it's great! So thank you once again God for giving me exactly what I need. Now, the only thing that I think is missing is me having a part time job, but I'm trying to figure out if God really wants me to have one anyway or not. Well I basically have a job lined up at the hospital for the end of Feb. beginning of March or so, but I would be willing to take one sooner, especially since my bank account is withering away. So if God wants me to find one sooner, it'll come. I think that's about it for now, I had a good weekend, my friends Ashley and Jeff and I went to Atlanta on Friday and stayed with Jeff's grandparents house so we could go see the Van Gogh exhibit at the High museum of art, It was a pretty good one, we had alot of fun. But now it's back to drawing board for me. Only downside of this schedule- 3 hours in a row with Ms. martin on Mondays and Wednesdays... I don't think I need to say anything else but ouch. Well, I'm off to brave the next 3 hours...Pray for me. =)

Drama, Drama, Drama

It's been a few days since I posted last and I figure it's about time to get back in the habit, just like Whoopi Goldberg in Sister Act 2. Anyway, classes are in full swing now and I'm back to normal with everything. Good things have been happening lately for me. Despite the fact that I can't be at the first half of every single Anderson Orchestra rehearsal because I have a class at that time, the director wants me to stay in first chair! Yay for getting to keep something that I don't deserve. Classes have been going well, I'm thoroughly motivated and am really striving towards surprising myself to get A's even though that's next to impossible with the Martin-ator. But we'll see. So that's what's happening on the academic front. The social front however is starting to look a little hazy. There's some drama going on within the suite that doesn't need to be there...at all. I don't deal well with drama, and most of the time, my defense mechanism is akin to the armadillo. I just ball up and roll away. I don't think armadillos really roll all that much, but the point is that my way to deal with drama is to not deal with it at all. Because half the time the drama is ridiculous anyway. So this drama going on is completely uninvited and I can't stand it...at all. So instead I throw myself into my schoolwork mostly. Alright, well with that said, I just want to say thank you to my best friends Missy and Ruth, for never bringing drama into our friendship, you girls are amazing and I miss you both terribly. Anyway, today was a good day, I've got nothing at all to complain about. Plus tomorrow, I don't have class and I get to go do community service at the nursing home. Yay! Bye!

P.s. Funniest quote of the day from the Most unlikely person.
"We have to hurry and get through this chapter on Europe, because just like Eddie Murphy, we need to Come to America!" -Ms. Anne Martin in my Residential design class

Missy's future husband...

Missy's future husband 2
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Here's the picture that I was talking about of Dean from Gilmore Girls. That's my best friend Missy to the left of him, and her sister Joleen is on the far left, and our other friend Mandy is on the right. I finally figured out how to post photos, so there's more where this came from!

I've got a baad feeling about this...

I think this semester is going to be kind of weird, but maybe not so much in a good way. I'm not really sure I'm going to really enjoy this schedule, because right now, it's Thursday a little after 2 o'clock, and I'm sitting by myself in the living room, with my laptop, like a lonely nerd. So, yeah, my afternoons and Fridays are completely free, but I have a feeling that I won't be seeing my friends too much, which is sad, but hey it's the first day so I'm sure everything will work out, let's just hope so anyway. So if you're reading this and want to spend your afternoon or anytime on Friday with me, well I'll be in my room because I don't have anywhere else to go =)
New subject, James Lipton from Inside the Actor's Studio goes to my school now. Well, not really James Lipton himself, but his name is Brad and he's a theater major from Texas and he bears an uncanny resemblance. Anyway, I met him today and he's really nice, so yay for new friends. I think I'll have to fight the urge though to go up to him and say "Hello James Lipton, I'm King Lort! There's a troll in Central Park! I'm King Lort!!!" Alright, well, I'm going to go..um...do something I suppose. See ya!

You know what sucks?

Looking for a job, that's what sucks.

Ms. Doris called me 'love' today...=)

Well, I made it back to school, I've gotten my life in order for the new semester and although I'm not exactly sure if I'm ready for classes tomorrow, they're going to start anyway, so I suppose I should just buck up and be prepared for Ms. Martin and all she will throw at me this semseter.
It's been a good day today, I got my computer back (FINALLY) but it's good so now I can stop going to the library to use it, And I talked to my best friend Missy last night, and she had quite the exciting weekend because she got to meet Dean from Gilmore Girls!! Now, to those of you who may not know, this show is one of my best friends and my favorite shows ever. I'm completley jealous, but very happy because they look really cute together, and I think they're going to get married. No I'm not exaggerating.
Well that's about it for now, I'm going to head over to the hospital, try to pester them into giving me a job. Hope everyone has a good day!