Didn't intend for the post to get this long...maybe you should go grab a sandwich first. Just kidding

It's been a pretty good week thus far, and since technically my school week ends after my night class tonight, I think it's alright that I'm making judgement calls on the week when it's only Thursday. My ankle is healing nicely, it doesn't really hurt anymore, my ego is still bruised, but I don't think that will ever go away, especially with all the um..."recurring incidents" Just kidding. I try not to let myself be too embarrased and become too dramatic and take things too seriously. So far so good. =)
In a previous post I had been talking about some tension and whatnot in some relationships, and these last few weeks or so, it's subsided since then, but through it, I've learned alot of things about people, unfortunately, what I've discovered isn't necessarily great. Not to say that I hate these people or that I can't stand them or anything, but I've definitely realized things about some people's characters that are discouraging. And it makes me kind of sad, because these are the types of things that they probably don't see as bad or as anything that needs to be changed, and I suppose it doesn't necessarily need to be changed, but what I'm learning is that I think I'm different from some people and I don't think I ever fully understood that until recently. One of the things that I've noticed, is that some people lack the motivation (or whatever you'd call it) to change themselves, even if they're not satisfied with who they are. I don't know if it's laziness that's holding them back, or fear, or what it is, but it honestly frustrates me to have someone tell me that he or she doesn't like something about himself or herself, but won't do anything to change, and they start to just accept it as fact even if it obviously could be changed. The other thing I'm starting to notice alot is the negativity. Before you roll your eyes at me and my sarcasm, Yes, I know I'm an extremely sarcastic person, and if whomever is reading this has ever been hurt or discouraged by my words, I do apologize, I'm not perfect, and while I can honestly say that I do not mean for my "jokes" to be taken in any sort of serious way, I know that sometimes they're not taken as lightly as I mean for them to. I will say that I'm always joking, and I try not to let my tongue get away from me, but again, I'm not perfect. If I am sarcastic though, I'm not trying to belittle because I'm angry or defensive. If I do get angry or defensive, you'll know, because I will stop talking, and we all know how often that happens =) Anyway, after that disclaimer, I've noticed that others may not always be joking, and others do use sarcasm as a mask for something that is mean, and I don't like that. I feel that by hanging out with certain people that may do that, it begins to be contagious. It's so easy to be miserable and judgemental and just downright negative, but that isn't a Christian attitude to have, and being Christ-like isn't easy. The last thing that I've noticed I suppose kind of ties in with the first thing about unwillingness to do something. And this is a trend that is everywhere among younger single females. I get kind of frustrated when girls will base their lives on the prospect of marriage. Don't get me wrong, because I'm not a femi-nazi. Marriage is a blessing from God and is I'm sure wonderful, but sometimes I feel like some girls will spend their lives sitting on a couch not doing anything just waiting for Prince Charming to come and sweep them off their feet. Dreaming of marriage isn't the problem, the problem is that life is not pointless up until the time you say "I Do." I feel like some girls honestly just live their lives as if they are just killing time until some guy hands them a ring. I know it sounds stupid, but Good Lord, think of all the opportunities there are to make a difference in someone's life, think of all the opportunity there is to make a change! But instead some girls would prefer sit on the couch watching whatever Wedding show is on for 4 hours a day dreaming of their perfect wedding, rather than doing something productive, and that makes me sad. And frustrated. And now that I've written way too much, I think I'm going to stop ranting now, because I'm ok. I'm cool... If you made it all the way through the post, Congratulations, you've just read what's been on my mind for a long time now. Leave a comment if you wish (Don't forget you can post anonymously, mom<3>