So...here I am, in Kansas at the Sleep Inn where I am retreating for the night. I'm on my way back to school. Still can't decide how I feel about that. One thing I am feeling though is sad. I can't stand goodbyes, and worse when I have to say goodbye to my family and my best friends and my home. I always get so sad when I say goodbye and I start to feel like I don't even want to go back if it means leaving all these things that I love behind. I know I sound really mopey and everything right now, but I always get like this, everytime I leave.
Last night was my last night at home, so my friends and brother and I went up to Red Rocks (I'm sure I've talked about it before, but look it up online, it's one of my absolute favorite places in Colorado to be) Anyway, we went up there around 8 or 9 (The park closes at 11) and we took my laptop up and we climbed up one of the big rocks (which you're technically not supposed to do) and watched a movie against the most amazing background that you'll ever see. It's so amazing to be up there because you're basically on top of Denver and you can see all the lights of the city for miles, but it's still dark enough to see all the stars. It was so pretty. We had such a great time too, and it's times like those that again, make me not want to leave. I don't regret going so far for college, It was God's plan for me, and I need that time to learn what God wants me to learn. But I think the novelty of going to college out of state is beginning to wear off. I feel like I really want to settle down into my life and be an actual "grown-up" Does that make sense? Probably not.
Anyway, Anderson people probably think that I hate them. I don't I swear and I am excited to see you guys again, but this is just the breaks of that whole out of state thing I suppose. Don't worry, I'll snap out of it once I get back there, but for tonight, I think I just want to be sullen.
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