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what do I say?

Do I talk about how much my granpda meant to me and the rest of our family?

Do I talk about what an unexpected shock it was to lose him?

Do I talk about how just 9 days before, he was healthy?

Do I dwell on how much I miss him?

Do I pretend like I'm doing ok when everyone keeps wanting me to talk about it?

Do I act brave, even though my heart is broken?

I don't know what to say.

I know he's in heaven and so much happier.

I know that death is not our conquerer.

I know that Gilbert Cordova was given the crown of glory by Christ.

I know that he is waiting for the rest of our family to get there.

I know this. I know this all because he taught it to me and raised us with Christ as our Shepherd.

But, it still hurts right now. And I don't know what to do about that.