What do you know, it's the day after valentine's day and I am now faced with the option of pontificating about this day which depending on your circumstances in life may be cherished or one of the most hated days of the year, or I could swim against the flow of chalky artificially colored message hearts and not really talk about it at all...tough call. Well, how about a little of both. I will say that I am now aware that Valentine's day also may be known by the moniker of Single's Awareness day. And not only on the Anderson college campus either, I've seen it in a couple different places. Hmm...When did that start? Am I really that behind? Well I honestly don't have that much to talk about for Valentine's Day. Obviously I didn't have a valentine. Otherwise, this entry probably would have been a little different. =) It was pretty much like any other day, except with a little bit more candy, and a little bit better chance of opening up my mailbox to actually find something. Oh and by the way Mom, I missed your valentine's day card...hmmm must have been lost in the mail or something, right? just kidding, but only partially, I really did miss getting one from you. *Single tear* Anyway, that was pretty much that. Another v-day bites the dust.
So....I don't usually end up getting hurt by people, or if I do get a little hurt, I don't usually end up talking about it right? Right, so this is a new thing for me, but here's a question... a friend kind of hurt me a little recently and it's kind of been on my mind for a few days, which is unusual for me. I guess it's not really a huge thing, but it kind of stung a little, but I don't really know the whole story yet, so this entry may be a little premature, especially since I haven't talked with the person yet. Anyway, I usually put these sorts of things out of my mind, but I guess what I'm wondering is should I be hurt, because...well I don't know why. I usually just quell whatever is bothering me and it'll pass, but is that necessarily the right thing to do? I've wondered this for kind of awhile. And I know that people are always going to let others down in some way shape or form, because that's just human nature, but does that necessarily mean that I should just not let others affect me at all. Not to say that everything someone else does should have an impact on my emotions or whatever, but what happens when a friend kind of lets you down a little bit? My stone cold heart wants to say "Buck up kid, it's not important, it doesn't mean much, and the whole friendship thing wasn't that important in the first place, so you'll get over it and move on." But then my other side gets a little sad and thinks "Well, I guess I thought that maybe we were a little bit better friends than that, but..." Anyway, don't think I'm about to dismiss the friendship totally, but unfortunately since I've lost a few friends in this potential situation, my thoughts are usually directed by the outcomes of these other situations. Wow, this entry probably doesn't make sense to anyone else...Oh well, good thing it's my blog and my thoughts that I felt I wanted to write down and sort out. If you don't understand, well...sorry, but it's been on my mind. Anyway...I really need to go get back to work on my outrageously hard project right that's due as part of our grade for Ms. Martin's test tomorrow. Yeah, it's pretty brutal. But hey that's good old Maniacal Martin. Ciao for Now. I'm probably enslaved to the library if anyone wants to come visit. =)
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Apparently, you did not receive all the little love thoughts sent to you from the wild west. Just know they were sent. :-}
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