So here I am, in the Graphic design lab once again working myself to death. Well, just sleepiness really. So you may be wondering, why I am writing in my blog if I have a Color theory project due tomorrow. The answer...Not sure. But I'm taking a break and collecting my thoughts. Not that I really have many thoughts today, It's been kind of a crazy week. Once this week is through I will be able to breathe a little. Here's what the week looks like: 2 projects, 5 Christmas parties, 2 concerts, 2 dress rehearsals, a christmas formal, an Advent Church service, a baby shower, a couple lunch meetings, and I'm not 100% sure, but I think there's a partridge in a pear tree involved somehow. But after that, I have finals and precisely 4 days to get my life in complete order before I pack up and head back home to the Mile high city. I'm thrilled beyond all belief, but there's definitely some anxiety as to whether or not I can do it all. But hey, I've been through worse and all I can give is my best. Phew...
Well anyway, on a more serious note, I talked with my cousin the other night on the instant messenger, and she's going through a tough time right now called Junior High. She's in 7th grade right now, and I don't know if you guys remember what jr. high was like, but here's a little flashback...it sucks. It is quite possibly the worst, most awkward, confusing, and emotional time of anyone's life and she's going through alot right now. I'm not going to go into details, but she's had a somewhat rough life. My aunt made some mistakes in her past, and though she's rebounded from them now, she's still having to pay some of the consequences and those consequences are hitting my cousins kind of hard. My cousin is just hurting right now, and that's hard for me to watch too. My little cousin that I have watched grow up is experiencing things that I never have and never will have to experience. I don't know exactly how to help either. I just want her to stop hurting and experience true joy again. I don't know, sometimes I feel like I don't know how to relate. I have honestly been sooo spoiled in my life. God has handed everything to me on a silver platter. I come from an amazing family that loves me and I love them all very dearly, I went to a great school where I got a fantastic education, I've had good health my entire life, I've never lost anyone close to me, and I am just ridiculously blessed. I'm so thankful and humbled by how amazing God has been to me, but I feel sometimes if for instance if I'm talking with someone who is struggling with a bad family situation or whatever I don't know how to relate. I want to help and give advice, but sometimes I feel like all I can give is some scripture verse, which I know I know, what's better than scripture? But sometimes I feel like people look at me like a Bible on tape that isn't necessarily connected to reality. Sometimes I wonder if it's really helpful to people...I don't know. But anyway, if anybody is reading this, please pray for my cousin and well her whole family that they can just get past the anger and hurt.
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